Ouch.

Published on 27 June 2023 at 22:51

One by one, I've been saying goodbye.

 

Last Saturday, I went to the animal shelter where I used to volunteer. The animals don’t normally stay there very long because most are adopted or placed in foster homes quickly, but there was this one cat… Nash. Nash came into the shelter a bit unpredictable: hissing and lashing out; however, I gave him my trust and in turn, he gave me his.

 

After I took the ACT, I was mentally (and emotionally) DEAD; so, I went to the shelter simply to hide away in Nash’s room. I laid down on the ground—head on the cat bed—and watched as Nash inched closer and closer, sniffing me and testing me. It took a couple hours, but eventually HE. WAS. NUZZLED. UP. NEXT. TO. ME!!!!!!! 

I love all the cats, and I volunteered at the shelter solely to give them the love and attention they all deserve, but this one… Nash was the closest I’ve ever gotten to adopting. So dang close. And last Saturday, I had to leave him, knowing very well I would never see him again—it felt like a hole was drilled STRAIGHT through my heart.

 

That was just the first goodbye.

 

Saying goodbye to everyone… ouch. Big ouch.

 

After spending the day at A SURPRISE PARTY FOR ME (omg I felt so special, holy buckets) and chilling with my childhood bestie, I came home and just shouted into oblivion (a.k.a. the empty living room), “I AM SAD” followed by “AHHHHHHH.”

 

Was that a lil dramatic? Mayyybeeeeeee… but it was true.

Don't judge the cake—my best friend and I worked hard on it!

 

I’ve cried so much this week; yet, I’ve also been bouncing up and down, laughing at nothing, and dancing to music in my head. I feel EXHILARATED by all this excitement.

 

Sampai jumpa (until later)!!!!! 

 

P.S. I’m gone already, by the way. More updates next time!

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Suzanne Eichstadt
a year ago

I miss you!!

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